come to post again .. ytd tio some stupid customer .. -.-"' .. sigh .. everyday is workin & workin .. finally had my day off .. but it's turn out that my off day's had to finish soon .. & need to work tmr .. >.< ..!!!

it's going to our 4th mths sOon.. i tot he can understand how ii feel .. i always told him i hate to be alone or being ps .. but he didn't take it to his mind .. he always tot i wan to stick with him ..

he got friends to accompany him .. but i don hab cuz all my frenz are busy .. they don even had e time to accompany me .. sigh .. didn't i treat him well enough? sigh .. i now more feel that his freedom is more important then me .. he ytd sms me and say , " i don like u to stick with me "..

hurtful right? sigh .. i am tryin my best not to cry for him anymore and not to depend on him .. someone told me one sentence, " dOn put ur whole heart to him, so u wouldn't hurt by him " .. hmm .. i think she is right .. and i tryin not to put my whole heart .. always felt disappointed and lonely when being ps ..

when i was sad or angry, i need to treat it nth happen and put a smile on e sms and say nvm .. just because he always say i give stun .. but did he noe , i just want him to noe how i feel .. why am i always keepin my feelin & not to say?

whenever i tell him, we were quarrel cuz he nv ever understand .. :_(

felt everything i do, he nv think of .. he onli noe what his frenz done for him but not me .. nv been me .. maybe i just useless , can't even make my darlinq feel that i am precious to him .. i will nv be .. onli his frenz & family

come to post again! .. SIGH! I DON WAN TO HAVE ATTACHMENT! it's so bloody boring .. :(( .. but just because i wan get my CERT & N97 ! i need to work .. >.< .. just feel like workin at ballOon show ONLI! ..

Jas & ii de coming nxt show is next sat .. >.< .. need to off that day! and their theme is MICKEY! .. *thinkin hard* how to design their place?!? how's big it is?? sianz .. >.< ..

dOn like my ONLI one supervisor .. she keep nag at me .. not ii do e thing, she also blame until my side .. -.-''' zZz .. SOMEMORE STILL NEED TO WORK WITH HER THIS WHOLE WEEK ! waaa sianz .. :((

life are sO sianz to be wif her .. keep replenish stock .. zzz

hmm .. today i went to zhu hse at 9.30am .. then use com .. cuz ltr he sendin me to work .. >.< .. sO sianz .. ltr i meetin jastina to eat lunch .. me & her today IS AFTERNOON SHIFT !!! >.< .. haa ..

doNnO today what i am going to do .. :(( .. stand until leg pain .. sigh .. aww ..

5 Oct 2009

tOday went tO watsons HQ .. sO nervous .. dOnnO what stOre i will went in .. >.< .. waited for so long la .. cheryl work at Office .. i work at AMK .. -.-"' .. Jastina work at Bugis .. hmm .. after we nOe where we work, we gO for training then go HOME!

6 Oct 2009

almost LATE! .. but zhU accompany me to amk MRT .. hahas .. reached there at 9.58am .. >.< early by 2 mins .. :X .. hmm first day of work, learned how to do front facing .. aww.. then stand all e way~~~~~~ onli can sit when havin lunch .. i leave at 5 ++ .. reached yishun 6.10pm .. :) then meet darlinq ..

sleep at 10++ .. tmr work morning too >.< ..

7 Oct 2009

went to work as usual .. learned how to & where to replenish stOck .. Lmao .. >.< .. then 5.30pm i change and went to find zhu .. :)) ..

8 Oct 2009

today is abit different .. i work at afternoon .. reached there early .. -.-''' .. lmao .. hab my dinner at 4++pm .. OMG! e time pass damn bloody slow .. i was bored la .. always tryin to get thing to do ..

but whenever i had things to do, i will do veri fast .. -.-''' .. sigh .. ended at 10++ .. got one auntie come our store and tok to our supervisor .. tok & tok .. then she still say our staff , i think included me .. -.-''' .. she until we very BAD! .. zzz .. one staff just playin yoyo after work .. got wrong meh? she damn kp .. -.-''' ..

whatever la .. zhu fetch me at khatib mrt :)) .. then went home .. damn hungry .. aww .. i & him eat tibits 2gether .. :) then i fall asleep at his arms .. >.< .. hehes

gOing to hab attachment sOon le .. sianz .. it's tomorrow .. -.-'''think zhu will never send me to my outlet de .. he onli send me to khatib mrt .. -.-"" sianz .. :(( ..

always felt he think for himself but not me .. :(( he can say me at his friends & family .. haiis .. dOnnO what tO dO .. :(( .. he will nv ever understand me de .. :'(

cOme to Post aGain .. hmm .. sOmetime felt that he will PS me alOne .. and nv accompany where i wan to go .. sigh ... tot of going to visit my sister push cart today .. but he didn't wan to gO .. :( ..

i noe it's far but i just wanted to go there see see .. sigh .. going to have attachment sOon .. ;( .. kind of worries .. sigh ..

i noe i got my own barrier of trusting stead .. maybe i trust too much of my ex & get hurt in e end .. sO now i didn't trust much on him .. ;( .. sigh .. i scare i trusted him & he hurt me again ..