it's going to our 4th mths sOon.. i tot he can understand how ii feel .. i always told him i hate to be alone or being ps .. but he didn't take it to his mind .. he always tot i wan to stick with him ..
he got friends to accompany him .. but i don hab cuz all my frenz are busy .. they don even had e time to accompany me .. sigh .. didn't i treat him well enough? sigh .. i now more feel that his freedom is more important then me .. he ytd sms me and say , " i don like u to stick with me "..
hurtful right? sigh .. i am tryin my best not to cry for him anymore and not to depend on him .. someone told me one sentence, " dOn put ur whole heart to him, so u wouldn't hurt by him " .. hmm .. i think she is right .. and i tryin not to put my whole heart .. always felt disappointed and lonely when being ps ..
when i was sad or angry, i need to treat it nth happen and put a smile on e sms and say nvm .. just because he always say i give stun .. but did he noe , i just want him to noe how i feel .. why am i always keepin my feelin & not to say?
whenever i tell him, we were quarrel cuz he nv ever understand .. :_(
felt everything i do, he nv think of .. he onli noe what his frenz done for him but not me .. nv been me .. maybe i just useless , can't even make my darlinq feel that i am precious to him .. i will nv be .. onli his frenz & family
