come to post again .. hmm .. ytd login to zhu's facebook and saw something that i really hate and don wan .. but what can ii dO? i told him abt it .. it's feel like he is flirtinG .. but he say he onli disturb them .. sigh .. i tried not to think muCh .. i can't control ..

feel sO mOody .. :( .. hurt alsO been huRt .. the wound will always be there 4ever .. i feel sO unsecure .. feel sad abd Lost .. i tried my best not to think le .. but why am i sO weak in relatiOnship? i want to trust him mOre .. but i always see things that i don wan .. it's feel hurt ..

all i can is just keep it to myself .. and cry alone .. i nOe i already not important to him .. and i can't stand to his heart .. maybe i am not good enough .. relatiOnship, is nOt meant for me ..........


why my heart don wan let gO?
why am ii so weak?
why i always lose to other girl?
am i useless?


i not meant for this world too ....

TIME FLIES! Today is e last day of my attachment .. tot after my attachment, i felt HAPPIER! but is nOt.. felt a bit sad and wanted to cry .. maybe i alsO had feelinq with e staff their .. :( ..

Thanks fOr e everything .. had a great time .. :D .. just hOpe their sales will keep going up ! will visit them sOon .. :) .. they brought a box of choclate cookies that worth $24.90 .. Oh my .. sO gOod riGht? They wanted me to stay as part time but, i still have ballOon .. sOrrie ..

x3 & miss them .. :) .. Remember e staircase that i climb up and down and all e stock to replenish .. alot alot of memories there .. although just 2mths .. all e unhappiness and laughter .. all e customers smiles.. almost regular customer that whay they wan .. example, a auntie come buy pads, she want to double bag it.. :)

i being learnt alot alot ..! nOw, back to my lifes aGain .. baCk to alpha plUs .. :) ..

i wouldn't forget you all de ..


Chocolate cookies by them .. :D

cOme to post again :D .. count to 2 more days! Cheer .. everyday at work, needed to be scolded de sia .. :'( but nvm .. tolerate .. ! Lols .. :) .. miSs zhu .. hehes .. jUst watch 2010 movie with zhu .. i want to watch twilight, New mOon! .. >.< ..

hmm .. zhU brought me a clothes and skirt .. hmmm ... donnO what to say abt e things he brought .. but i still will wear, i tink ._. .. hehes .. dOnnO what to buy for him leh .. any suggestion of e shirt and pant is nicer? 0.o as he suggest he wanted shirt and pant ..

lalala.. so sianz ..!!! dOnnO when zhu is working .. he bankrupt liao ..!! LOLs .. tmr i workin 12 noon to 8 pm .. >.< .. hmm .. mOnday need to go meet teacher, to return lOg bOok and gO SINGAPORE FLYER! YEAH .. *excited* .. a long time stress during work, finally can relax and do what i wan le ..! cheeR .. :D

i tink when i am free .. i will be, buskin buskin BUSKING Lols .. :D and of course accOmpany my darlinq .. :P .. earn mOre and mOre $$ .. $.$

he today morning smsed me .. :D .. and say Happy 5th mth anniversary! .. hehes .. when he nv scold bad word .. i think he a gentle guy .. :D this is what i like .. but if he scold .. it's feel suck .. lols .. >.< .. woke up at 6.30am .. cuz going back to school for presentation and hand in report .. ohya and hand in e form that supervisor give marks ..

3 more days .. not even taken my first mth pay sia .. :( .. i want buy N86 .. N97 mini seem to spoilt easily leh .. hahas .. think i still need to consider for awhile be4 buyin new handphone ..

i will still usin zhu give me de handphone and my NOKIA 5610 :D ..

to be contiune .. >.<

today quarrel with him .. -.-"' LOls ask him come fetch me at my work place, he also don wan .. donno what to say lo .. also not askin him to buy breakfast for me everyday.. zz .. -.-"' sigh ..

Come to post today :) ..

ytd went home at 11+pm .. cuz my store is going to renovate.. TODAY IS MY OFF DAY .. hahas .. sigh .. stay at home~ :S ..

haven done my project leii .. sianz .. going to print out soon .. :P .. hahas .. didn't meet him for 2 days liao .. maybe this is what he wan ba .. ._. .. hmm .. that all ba .. didn't wan tok much abt him ..

cOme to post agaiin~~~~~ ..

past few days, i broke up with zhu .. but in e end patch back again ._."' .. LOLs .. dOnnO why i felt sO unsecure .. just felt i am not that important to him but sometime wouldn't .. sigh ..

that i cried, cuz he so cold but what i can do is endure .. tried not to tink much .. ;( .. tze wei once told me , i cannot always want him to repay back me .. love is not like that .. as i start to know e meaning .. hahas ..

going to end attachment sOon~ .. oh my .. i still need go train? just left 2 more weeks lei, still need go SMU de watsons .. sianz .. haiis .. wan to end it fast .. ^^ ..

BUSY BUSY~!! for my IAP report .. dOnno what to write .. Oh My Oh My ..! hmm .. >.< ..

miss my friends .. :D .. hope to meet up sOon oh..! luv u guy muacks .3.

hmm donno why i can't give up on him? why my life always cling on him? is this a fate? ._."'
anyone ever feel pain for his/her ex when u all already break?

ytd quarrel with him .. dOnno what to say .. he angrily said break .. and i say nothing .. feel don like to care anything .. didn't cry, just heartpain .. maybe my tears for him already dry up .. hmm .. nothing to say much but he sms me at e morning .. and tell me not to take what he say ytd ..

so i didn't say anything alsO .. cuz donnO what to say alsO .. gOing work sOon .>.<

today workin full shift .. SHIIT! don really feel like but have to .. doing planogram changes .. at least time past fast :D .. tomorrow need to go work at 4 pm .. >.< .. hehe .. miiss zHu though we meet everyday .. hehes .. :X